Two minutes

It's just two minutes of my day

I can sing the happy birthday song in my head

three times to distract myself.

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and it's so repetitive.

And I was always told

sometimes in life we have to do things we dont particularly like

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and i hate the taste of my mouth

especially when i starts frothing up like ugh

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am I done now?

I must be done now, it has to have been two minutes.

He -

He said it would only take two minutes

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he said it would be easy and quick and like brushing my teeth

This-

this is not like brushing my teeth

I did not swallow my own tongue

He reached between my lips and took it from me.

I shut my mouth

I did not want him to reach in again.

I did not want him to take my teeth as well

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I thought, if i dont move and I just keep my mouth closed

He''ll only invade one set of lips

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Afterwards he gave me my tongue back

but it never really felt like it belonged to me again

I did not use it

I did not tell anyone

I was too scared of losing another part of me

as if mentioning what had happened meant it would happen again

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he made it sound so normal

like everyone did it

like it would be weird if I didn't

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if I mentioned it then I have to acknowledge it happened

It was

only two minutes

it was just like brushing my teeth

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